Long drives and Sunrise

We spend too much time waiting for the sunrise. Don’t you remember?

All At Once

You love. You don’t. You love again. You hurt. You heal.

Everything happens all at once.

Better Together

I imagine you and me. Right here. Right now.

Oh how i wish.

It’s hard to not think of you all the time.

Enough of the drama. It’s a beautiful day here at boracay, i will seize the day and just enjoy the remaining days left. :)

Ambivalence

I am in a state of having conflicting feelings. I don’t know why i’m feeling this right now, i’m quite emotional this day after i attended worship service earlier this morning. It just occur to me that i only have 10 days left to spend with the family and friends.

I really hate this kind of feeling. I’m quite confused. I’m just praying that God will give me extra strenght and guidance and i know he will not leave me in times like this. :(

Goodbye, 2012!

It may not be the perfect 2012 as i expected, but it taught me a lot. To reach for my dreams, to be brave, to be stronger than i was, to love, and to appreciate everything that i have. I’ve been through it all, the good and hard times but still i’m thankful for everything that had happened because i know somehow that it is what God wants for me.

As i bid goodbye to 2012, i will forever take with me all those lessons that it taught me and use it as i begin a new journey of my life. One thing i really learned from it is ‘Acceptance’ and once you learn how to accept, you can move on to the next chapter and can easily let go of the past.

So finally, i am leaving all the heartaches behind and will begin a fresh new life.

Happy 2013! :)

Purpose of Love

“When I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel, you’re the only person that can remind me.”

– IWTFY

Like A Firework

Sometimes life puts you in touch with the people you need to meet. To love you, to help you, to hurt you, to teach you lessons, and to strengthen you to a person you were meant to become and then leave you. They will come into your life to give you happiness and will make you believe in love. Some of them stayed beside you, but most of them left you.

I have met a lot of them. They are like a firework that gives you happiness for a short period of time. They are beautiful, they shine in a dark night sky, they light up your life, and make you smile but then like a firework they just fade away and will vanished into thin air. It hurts when this happen, no matter how much you believe that they are different, they are all the same and you have to keep in mind that they won’t last, nothing does.

because just like that, they are gone.

Worlds Apart

“I wish here was there
or that there could become here so I could hold you.”

Lesson Learned

There’s a lot of lesson that you’ve learned from yourself, and yet you’re still learning. It’s a continous process that sometimes even if you’ve already learned from it you will find yourself choosing the same mistakes all over again.

One thing i learned is not to expect. Expectation really hurts and sometimes even if you remind yourself thousand times not to, there’s still a part of you that still expecting and somehow hoping for something.

Never expect and never rely on promises. That’s one lesson you probably learned from all of the broken promises the world has given you.

Escape

Yesterday, i was supposed to go to Davao with family but we just cancelled the trip. I’ve been wanting to go there this year, this is my much needed escape and that i’m looking forward to. Actually, i can go by myself but i don’t have enough budget for this trip. If only i can be there just for a day at the beach, so i can have peace of mind.

It’s really sad that it didn’t push through, So right now, i’m just reliving those memories at pearl farm beach resort. The place is just heavenly beautiful, it’s such a paradise.

I will go back for sure, maybe before this year ends, and i’m hoping to go there with friends. :)

Someday

“I want to believe there is a somebody out there just for me. I want to believe that I exist to be there for that somebody.”

David Levithan

Emptiness

“It’s the lack,
the gap, the absence
and the silence
that fills me
now.
How can so little
take up so much
space
inside of me?”

Tyler Knott Gregson

No letting go.

“Hope can be found in the smallest and most unassuming places. If you only remember to hang on tightest when you want to let go the very most.” – Tyler Knott Gregson

I can’t hang on tight, i want to let go but can you really let go of something you never had? Can you claim it yours even if you’re not committed? But still, i’m trying my best to hold on, even if it hurts.

Messages.

Have you ever feel so tense when someone sent you a message? Your heart beats faster and somehow it skipped a beat? Well it always happened to me, to this same man whom i met years ago. Just seeing his name popped-up on my phone, it’s like i drank loads of caffeine and i’m having palpitations.  I don’t know why i feel this way every time but seriously i need to do something about it, ’cause at some point i’m not sure if it’s because i’m afraid, or i’m deeply in love with him and i don’t want to lose him or whatsoever. 

Keep on wishing.

Dandelions, 11:11’s, fallen lashes, & shooting stars. I wished for you in everything i could wish to. Only you.

Until when? When will i ever get tired of wishing & hoping? Is it enough? Do i have to do something? Is it worth it?

Then i realized, wishing is not enough. if you’re scared to tell the person you love how you feel about him, if you didn’t take the chances, your wish will never happen.